Exploring the Seasons Moment By Moment

To Be Somebody August 20, 2011

Most of my life, I have always dreamt of being somebody. No, I didn’t need to be the next president of the US or the next great celebrity. But rather, I just wanted to be looked up to and respected. I still want to be respected in whatever career field I end up in, but the truth is that beyond that very vague desire, I really no longer seek the attention I once wanted.

Earlier this evening, I surfed through some photos of, “Who is out and about in Boston?”. There were dozens of individuals portrayed in this short album. It dawned on me at that moment just the lengths people have to go through to become somebody of fame in these parts. In mid-Missouri, all you need to do was wear the right unusual outfit to become a local celebrity. Here, there are far too many people that are doing their own thing to really be noticed. And surprisingly, at the thought of trying to get out and become someone – well, I have no interest. Instead, I would rather focus on just becoming the person I want to be. I don’t need the fame. I don’t need the stress of saying always the right thing or being at the place. This is a surprising change given that I have never been closer to the possibility of becoming somebody now. The doors are all around me, if I really wanted to pursue that.

What this means, is that I don’t really know what I want to do now. I mean, without the pressure of becoming famous, or really becoming anyone at all, it frees me up to be anything I want to be. The possibilities are endless – which is exciting. And a bit overwhelming. I think I am going to enjoy my time in Boston. Let’s see what happens!