Exploring the Seasons Moment By Moment

A New Life August 18, 2011

I have wanted a new life for sometime now. A chance to restart some place where I can redefine myself. I felt in my own life, a slipping away, a death coming over me. Set to settle for what has already been set up. I am far too young to settle.

And so, after months of planning, here I sit. In bed. In Boston. Miles away from any known world. My friends, my family, my existence is far removed, and the only being left is…me. And so I begin a new life. Where any possibility is, well, possible. I am attending seminary, the great education for those who want to study the Divine. I am not sure of my purpose here or what it will lead to, but then again, I have never truly planned my path. I learned back in my college years to just chill.

During my freshman year, in the privacy of my room, I created a timeline for my life. What I would do before 25, before 30, 40, 50, etc. I had my entire life mapped out. Upon looking at it, I ripped it to shreds. That is not how life is to be live. Life is breathing, constantly changing. I can’t plan to fall in love. Hell, one can’t plan on accepting one being gay. So much has changed from that freshman long ago, and yet, I find myself, in a way, starting right back where I was…a first year student in a program of study.

I don’t know what will happen in the course of the next few years. Maybe I will become a famous author. Or maybe, I will simply dissolve into nothingness. Either option is fully possible. However, this is my new start that I so badly craved. Let’s hope I can make it a good one.