Exploring the Seasons Moment By Moment

I have rewritten this post several times because I want to come back into the world of blogging kicking ass.  There are so many types of blogs out there – blogs on information, about daily lives, about what people think on issues.  This blog isn’t about my stance on issues – smarter people than I will be at the table to discuss and solve them.  This blog isn’t about a particular topic – I can not be limited to such narrowness in discussion, my brain has grown too abstract for such linear conversations.  This blog isn’t a daily record of my life’s doings – for that is contained in the many pages of many different personal journals.

This blog is a sharing of my experiences and thoughts that define  life; all of our lives.  Simple truths, hard lessons, and fucked up lies that need to undone.  I find myself yearning for a life that is unknown to me yet.  I find myself thinking I want a life like that and yet it is as distant as a shooting star in the cold night’s sky.  It isn’t a reality for me because I don’t let it.  Is it because I am lazy?  Is it because I am fearful?  A little of both I think.  However, the life I want to live is fully possible and doable.  I just have to choose to want it.

I am not there yet.  I have to take it step by step.  First, I step, I need to get caught up to the present.  All the back work on the desk needs to get done ASAP.  That means that I may not get much sleep or rest, but come Monday, I will be totally caught up.  I have to be if I am going to start to change how I live and what I do.  I have already made my list of things I want to start doing in life and making sure that I accomplish – one being self care which I suck at!

So, here’s a toast, to making the first step…