Exploring the Seasons Moment By Moment

I know that I have not been writing lately.  I know that I can not express what all that is going on in my life on here – for the general public to see.  However, know that life is busy with student teaching currently and still being a young pastor.  I don’t even know if anyone will read this post or if everyone has given up on me.  PLEASE come back in May if nothing else as after I finish school, this will be updated more often.  I have issues with making this a habit in life.  I have issues with making anything that takes work a habit in life – including eatting and sleeping some days!

I have been told in recent days that I need to take a chill pill over many different areas of my life.  I struggle with this because I have something that seems to be rare these days in my peers – passion.  And maybe that is the wrong way to put it as everyone has passions in their lives; however, I am passionate over many things.  I cannot help it.  One of my english teachers in high school thought that I was going to have a stroke by the time I reached the age of 20 (I have not…).  I remember the first time I went nuts over some educational issues with a college professor, and she thought I was going to have a heart attack.  And now, recently, I have been told once again, that I must calm down for my health.  However, my body doesn’t know anything different.  It doesn’t know what it is like not to get upset over issues and passionately care for them.  And I don’t understand others who passively live their lives.

With age comes patience, I thoroughly believe.  And it is so because of all of the experiences one gains.  I think those who are wiser than me realize that “the end” is never “the end” and hope is never too far off.  While things (systems) may not be as we want them to be, they are continually restructured, organized, and evaluated.  Eventually everything will work out.  This is one lesson that though I have experienced a few times in life, has not sunken in yet.

And so I continue on, yelling and screaming about the wrongness of the world.  I continue on saying that we have to work on this world and our lives.  There has to be a better way.  There has to be a way where it all is fair and right.  I don’t like the saying that life isn’t fair.  Life isn’t fair because we are too hung up over ourselves to help others out, because if we would – everyone and everything would be equal; in other words fair!!!! (I know, I know…calm down, calm down.)

May you have passion in your life to do what you really love whatever that may be.  May God grace you with patience and understanding for those who don’t share your passions.  And most importantly may you come to terms with all that is wrong in the world and slowly but surely, improve it.  It really is the small actions in our lives that truly make a difference.

Thank you for checking this if you are reading this.  I can’t promise when my next post will be, but know this - there will be another post…as long as I don’t have a heart attack in the next couple of months.  (I wouldn’t worry about that though – I still have too much to say…)